27 March 2014

La La Land

Growing up with Mickey and Minnie during my childhood, and being a Disney-Channel-teenager, somehow drives me crazy to spend my penny to Disneyland.

I thought Disneyland will be the perfect happy ending for an eager-girl who seek for happiness.

As I'm growing older (or maybe getting more wiser) , there are so many ridiculous bills that I have to pay, so many unwanted life-crisis that I have to deal, so many risky challenges I have to face. Soon, I realized I'm struggling really hard at my own land. 

Today, I dream of having a piece of land, where I can sustain a simple life of my own. 

I wanna eat what I plant. 
I wanna sleep on a tree. 
I wanna pet a dog.
I wanna swim in a river. 
I wanna lie under the sun. 
I wanna sculpt the clay.
I wanna paint the canvas. 
I wanna camp with my sisters. 
I wanna spend my time gardening with my dad.
I wanna spend my time cooking with my mom.
I wanna spend my time watching movies with my brothers.
I wanna live in a community where we share the same interest.
I wanna live with a Nightingale.

Yes, I dream of having my own Dreamland.

26 March 2014

Virtual TuttiFrutti Gossip

21 March 2014

Awal & Akhir

Akhir sekali,
Hanya dengkuran dan hembusan nafas yang masih jadi peneman, 
Seperti malam-malam biasa.

Dan juga seperti pagi-pagi biasa,
Yang terakhir masih yang terawal,
Menjawab teka-teki yang tak pernah selesai.

19 March 2014

Rindu Yang Terpaling Keliru

Tiap-tiap malam menangis
Dalam tikaman separuh bengis
Betapa dalamnya dihiris-hiris
Pedihnya lagi digilis-gilis

Raut wajah orang tua yang dirindu
Sesekali bau tubuh kalian ku terhidu
Bebelan, keluhan yang jauh membisu
Janji apa yang aku tabur dulu-dulu?

Aku yang masih lemah longlai macam bangkai,
Jangan kau biarkan aku tersadai.

TUHAN,
Yang buta KAU celikkan,
Yang palsu KAU nyatakan,
Yang buruk KAU indahkah,
Yang rindu tolonglah KAU ubatkan.

Aku tak punya siapa-siapa,
Yang Maha Mendengar cuma KAU.

11 March 2014

IWD Post-Celebration : Unspoken Truths

3 jenis layanan sejak awal tahun 2014 yang terpaksa diterima kerana diam itu lebih baik (pada ketika itu) ialah :

Cacian
Ugutan
Makian

Maka, diam saja. Duduk diam-diam. Diam! 

07 March 2014

Respect

Knowing the fact that I am the one who started being disrespectful indirectly to my list of VIPs, I feel like killing my soul to the deepest layer of frustration, which full of contaminated stupidity and maturity.

Almighty Lord, I failed. Now let the angels carve the sculpture for the wedding gift, as I couldn't afford to pay for my endless friendship.